2001-07-06

Oy.

In May, McDonald's franchises in Egypt began serving its version of the traditional Arab snack known as a falafel - deep-fried patties of ground beans flavored with spices.
The McFalafel jingle featured Abdel-Rahim, whose hit "I hate Israel" earlier this year helped fuel an anti-Israeli and anti-American campaign during Israeli-Palestinian clashes.


from the Jerusalem Post online, 5 July 2001.
I would like to make a quiet, modest announcement.

I'm going to see Depeche Mode on Sunday the 8th.

I am a calm, collected, non-infatuated grownup going to an ordinary concert.

Yes.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! *bouncebouncebounce*

*ahem*

thank you.

2001-07-05

I re-joined the shattering the silence ring. muchlove.

2001-07-04

I owe them my life - I figured I could give them a day of it: I'm hopping on the great rolling bandwagon and doing the blogathon for RAINN.
So come on, sponsor me for the wonderful folks at crisis centers all over the US who stay up late to be that much-needed voice on the other end of the phone.


Happy 4th of July -- whether it means Independence Day, Damn-Those-Silly-US Americans Day, or just another day... I still hold this document below near and dear to my heart. Ladies, gentlemen, others, I give you the message that started the country I live in: Overthrow the government if it's oppressive and tyrranical! Be prepared to revolt! Illegitimati non carborundum!

Comments in italics are mine. I just had to.

THE DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE



In Congress, July 4, 1776
The Unanimous Declaration Of The Thirteen United States Of America


When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the Powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect for the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed. That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness.

Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shown, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security. Emphasis mine -- b.g.

Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The history of the present King of Great Britain is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid world.


He has refused his Assent to Laws, the most wholesome and necessary for the public good.

He has forbidden his Governors to pass Laws of Immediate and pressing importance, unless suspended in their operation till his Assent should be obtained; and when so suspended, he has utterly neglected to attend to them.

He has refused to pass other Laws for the accommodation of large districts of people, unless those people would relinquish the right of Representation in the Legislature, a right inestimable to them and formidable to tyrants only.

He has called together legislative bodies at places unusual, uncomfortable, and distant from the depository of their Public Records, for the sole purpose of fatiguing them into compliance with his measures.

He has dissolved Representative Houses repeatedly, for opposing with manly firmness his invasions of the rights of the people.

He has refused for a long time, after such dissolutions, to cause others to be elected; whereby the Legislative Powers, incapable of Annihilation, have returned to the People at large for their exercise; the State remaining in the meantime exposed to all the dangers of invasion from without, and convulsions within.

He has endeavored to prevent the population of these States; for that purpose obstructing the Laws for Naturalization of Foreigners; refusing to pass others to encourage their migration hither, and raising the conditions of new Appropriations of Lands.

He has obstructed the Administration of Justice, by refusing his Assent to Laws for establishing Judiciary Powers.

He has made Judges dependent on his Will alone, for the tenure of their offices, and the amount and payment or their salaries.

He has erected a multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to harass our People, and eat out their substance. (I'd have accused FDR of the same... -b.g.)

He has kept among us, in times of peace, Standing Armies without the Consent of our legislature.

He has affected to render the Military independent of and superior to the Civil Power.

He has combined with others to subject us to a jurisdiction foreign to our constitution, and unacknowledged by our laws; giving his Assent to their acts of pretended Legislation:

For quartering large bodies of armed troops among us:

For protecting them, by a mock Trial, from Punishment for any Murders which they should commit on the Inhabitants of these States:

For cutting off our Trade with all parts of the world:

For imposing taxes on us without our Consent:

For depriving us in many cases, of the benefits of Trial by Jury:

For transporting us beyond Seas to be tried for pretended offenses:

For abolishing the free System of English Laws in a neighboring Province, establishing therein an Arbitrary government, and enlarging its Boundaries so as to render it at once an example and fit instrument for introducing the same absolute rule into these Colonies:

For taking away our Charters, abolishing our most valuable Laws, and altering fundamentally the Forms of our Government:

For suspending our own Legislature, and declaring themselves invested with Power to legislate for us in all cases whatsoever.

He has abdicated Government here, by declaring us out of his Protection and waging War against us.

He has plundered our seas, ravaged our Coasts, burnt our towns, and destroyed the lives of our people.

He is at this time transporting large armies of foreign mercenaries to compleat the works of death, desolution and tyranny, already begun with circumstances of Cruelty & perfidy scarcely paralleled in the most barbarous ages, and totally unworthy the Head of a civilized nation.

He has constrained our fellow Citizens taken Captive on the high Seas to bear Arms against their Country, to become the executioners of their friends and Brethren, or to fall themselves by their Hands.

He has excited domestic insurrections amongst us, and has endeavored to bring on the inhabitants of our frontiers, the merciless Indian Savages, whose known rule of war-fare, is an undistinguished destruction of all ages, sexes and conditions. (*ahem* -b.g.)

In every stage of these Oppressions We have Petitioned for Redress in the most humble terms: Our repeated Petitions have been answered only by repeated injury. A Prince, whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free People.

Nor have We been wanting in attention to our British brethren. We have warned them from time to time of attempts by their legislature to extend an unwarrantable jurisdiction over us. We have reminded them of the circumstances of our emigration and settlement here. We have appealed to their native justice and magnanimity, and we have conjured them by the ties of our common kindred to disavow these usurpations, which would inevitably interrupt our connections and correspondence. They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends.

We, therefore, the Representatives of the United States of America, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the world for the rectitude of our intentions, do, in the Name and by Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly publish and declare, That these United Colonies are, and of Right ought to be Free and Independent States; that they are Absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political connection between them and the State of Great Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the Protection of Divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our lives, our Fortunes and our sacred Honor.
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Amen.
"I want to go to heaven someday, where ever the hell that is." --Ayn Rand
[quote snitched from pop culture slut, link borrowed from the lovely ms. elegy.]
Randites of the world, unite and take over.... I'm still in love with Dagny Taggart.

2001-07-03

relapsed catholic? *grin* My day has officially been made.
she's getting plenty of little kisses but no one's giving her the key

The survey will likely go unfinished. Go on, be surprised. I'm not worried about it too much, because I have other things on my mind... like DEPECHE MODE TICKETS! Ecstatic=moi. Also, I just found out that a girl on a mailing list I belong to happens to go to the same Uni that I do. She just joined. Think I'll go say hi. A chance to hug yet another ripple in person? *hugs for S, who got them first*

I wonder why I can't make myself write about what's happened in the last two months. My hands shake, the pens dry up, the paper burns spontaneously, the books disappear, my files are empty, my body sleeps. Maybe the writing is wrong.

2001-07-02

a'cause I'm a thief... it's the Numbers game.

Age I am - 19
People I have slept with - 9
Age when I lost my virginity - technically? @8. Voluntarily? @15.
Times I have been in love - 3
Times I have had my heart broken - 1
Hearts I have broken - too many
Months I have been single - erk? strange days.
Continents I have visited - uno, but all of it.
Age when I first flew all alone - @9
Numbers of boys I have kissed in my life - good lord. *counts on fingers* ... upwards of twenty.
Number of girls I have kissed. - 6
Types of drugs taken illegally - yeesh. types or specific? figuring types... 5 or 6.
Drugs I am addicted to right now - zeeero.
Number of piercing - 2 ears, left nostril.
Number of tattoos - 0
Number of times my name has appeared on film credits - 0
Number of times a boyfriend has made me scared of what he could do to me physically - not a fair question.
Number of things in my past that I regret, and still haunt my nightmares - lots. mrrp.

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7 things I'm afraid of:
1. Myself.
2. Dark water (the ocean at night, or lakes when I can't see to the bottom..)
3. Getting into the downish part of the sine wave in my head (see #1).
4. Getting stuck there.
5. Hurting someone I love.
6. Secrets that might be told.
7. The creepy frat guys who live in my apartment complex.

7 things that make me laugh:
1. Charlie the spastic kittencat.
2. Robin Williams' marijuana sketch.
3. ALL Monty Python. All of it. Even the awful stuff.
4. Charlie the great grey hunter and his shiny beads..
5. "Vere's de spoon?... a-Cha! a-cha!"
6. Bato the agorophobic tarantula who lives on my bookshelf.
7. The pregnant boy.

7 things that make me cry:
1. 3am thoughts.
2. Requiem for a Dream.
3. History. All of it. Why with all its beauty does humanity have such a pronounced death wish?
4. The Flesh Fair scene in Ai and the last 20 minutes of the movie, for two distinctly different reasons.
5. Bad dreams that keep going after I wake up.
6. Charlie's crying when he's lonely.
7. Sometimes, it's just the weight of the world.

7 things I love:
1. Being with my sister and brother.
2. Charliekitty!!!.
3. Rollercoasters.
4. Writing.
5. My friends, lovely lovely people. You are my shiny beads.
6. Living my life - MY life. Mineminemineminemine.
7. Subterranean Digs and albino dwarf porn.

7 things I don't understand:
1. Why I'm so broke. I had money in those accounts just yesterday, I swear! I just don't know where it goes.
2. How Brandon and Greg can possibly like all those math and science courses. I'm such a touchy-feely Humanities major.
3. Middle East conflicts. The more I know, the less I understand...
4. Why it is exactly that I'm hell-bent on getting blown up. Israel is my chosen option for living next year. Meep. =)
5. Charlie will chase his tail for twenty full minutes, realize it's his tail, and then chase it again five minutes later.
6. Did you know that red locusts from Yemen are kosher?
7. Me. Still. You'd think maybe by now...

7 things on my desk:
1. An indeterminate number of envelopes, bills, and random papers, all with messages and phone numbers scribbled on them and all very very important. I save everything.
2. Two white candles.
3. A big black metal board full of magnetic poetry.
4. My fat brown notebook with only two blank pages left, ready for its retirement party.
5. One skinny Charlie kitten.
6. Three bottles of nail polish (deep purple, silver, and green).
7. Gluesticks and glitter!

7 facts about me:
1. I have lousy time-management and, as a result, haven't finished this yet.

7 things to do before I die:
1. Finish this survey thinger.
Every letter, every email, every phone call, every post lately, has begun with the same thing. "So much has happened since last time..." It has. Much of the muchness has to do with a little jaunt to psych emergency and a hospital stay and a BA52 and a month locked inside myself. Some of the rest has to do with a little cat named Charlie who's living with me now and making my life quite sunshine-y and full of fuzzy purry love; also the friends (some online but mostly the ones who stick by me irl) who love me dearly and to whom I owe bits of my life. I love you love you love you. Since May 18th I have been in the hospital, out of the hospital, on drugs, off of drugs, on them off again tralala, and back on intermittently. I have lived out some of the pain no human being should live, and been loved so much I overflow with it. I am listening to Placebo and playing with the kitten who owns me. I've been gainfully unemployed, or rather fully employed without pay, in the arduous job of taking care of myself. I highly recommend that everyone employ herself for a full month, at least once, just to live and heal and snuggle and smash the occasional plate.

That said, my money's running out. I need to find work, and soon. My dilemma: I am qualified and able to pull in $20-30K a year in any number of jobs that would bore me literally to death. I am also qualified and able to work silly jobs at odd hours to pull in dollars to live on and perhaps scratch out enough to leave town (and state, and country, and continent) by next May. What to do, what to do?