Sounding the depths... pfft. I'm off to go see Punch Drunk Love. Again. By myself. Best thing I'll do all weekend.
Note: I did not actually go off to see Punch Drunk Love. Mission failure.

You think of yourself as being deepsoundless, enveloping, terribly frightening , and home.

Others think of you as being stealthy, sage, instinctive, and knowing without knowing.

Your relationships can be described as indifferently caring, cold, loud, and sensual.

When stressed, you feel oh.god..

Take this test here.

Stolen from Poppy:

my father thinks i am: intelligent, competent, creative, independent
my mother thinks i am: full of (mostly unused) potential, defiant, too much too young, just like her
my sibling thinks i am: (I have two siblings:) smart, weirdo, rachie, too far away
my grandma thinks i am: thoughtless
my grandpa thinks i am: a firecracker
my boyfriend/girlfriend thinks i am: disregarding the label… fierce, sexy, emotionally distant(?)
my best friend thinks I am: not around enough

+three things you are often complimented for = my storytelling, my eyes
+a compliment you got that made you blush = one for my eyes, from a complete stranger at a bookstore.
+you get embarrassed when = something true about me is pointed out in public.
+makes you happy = cold nights with warm clothes, time silently together, sleeping with charliekitten.
+upsets you = those small-column stories in the B section of the paper, small cutting remarks, the way I behave sometimes.

yes or no..
+you keep a diary = quite a few running at once
+you like to cook = toast and tea?
+you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = oh yes.
+you fold your underwear = yes.
+you talk in your sleep = sometimes; more often grind my teeth and dream hard.
+you set your watch a few minutes ahead = always, or I’m in trouble!
+you bite your fingernails = to the nub.
+you believe in love = love is hard on me. I have to believe in love like I have to believe in gravity; otherwise the premise is lost.

last..
x. movie you rented = So I Married an Axe Murderer; Amelie.
x. movie you bought = I have never bought a movie. Laura just bought The Royal Tennenbaums and LOTR.
x. song you listened to = Harry Belafonte - Jump In the Line
x. song that was stuck in your head = Bjork - Hyperballad
x. song you've downloaded = The Cure - Close to Me
x. CD you bought = It was a long time ago… maybe Tori Amos, Strange Little Girls?
x. CD you listened to = Jeremy’s mix CD
x. person you've called = Brandon.
x. person that's called you = for me specifically? See above.
x. TV show you've watched = um. TV? We get some fuzzy audio if we tilt right… but our television is just a monitor for the VCR.
x. person you were thinking of = Roses

do......
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = sometimes.
x. you believe in online dating = If I don’t believe, will it still happen? Or should I clap my hands and say, “I believe!” or it will die?
x. others find you attractive = some unlucky souls do.
x. you want more piercings = one.
x. you want more tattoos = not presently.
x. you drink = occasionally.
x. you do drugs = ibuprofin, baby. I stopped almost everything else in high school.
x. you smoke = sometimes.
x. you like cleaning = I clean spasmodically. It’s been happening with greater and greater frequency. I am becoming my mom Annette.
x. you like roller coasters = yay!
x. you write in cursive or print = cursive, thank you nuns of St. Joseph school, Enfield CT.
x. you carry a donor card = yes indeed.


have you..
x. ever cried over a boy/girl = both.
x. ever lied to someone = all the time, unfortunately or not.
x. ever been in a fist fight = twice.
x. ever been arrested = not yet.

what..
x. shampoo do you use = stuff that smells nice.
x. perfume do you use = Laura’s orange smelling spray thing.
x. shoes do you wear = black beat up boy’s shoes or boots.
x. are you scared of = many many things.

number..
x. of times I have been in love? = I’m still trying to figure out if I’ve ever been In Love, in whatever sense I’m to take it… I’d say yes. Twice. The first one was hard, the second one is harder… but the second one is good. Yes.
x. of times I have had my heart broken? = twice.
x. of people I've slept with? = “I couldn’t even begin to think about how to answer that question,” said Margot.
x. of people I consider my enemies? = none.
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? = four or five.
x. of CDs that I own? = “own” is a tricky concept when it comes to music in this house..
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = I can think of at least 4.
x. of things in my past that I regret? = there is no number to this one.